Commemoration

I came home from hospital yesterday, without you Joe.

I wish I could have kept you with me. It was so difficult to pass you over to the chaplain, to say goodbye, but we need to find out what happened to you darling, what happened that shouldn’t. I know you won’t suffer, and we will see you again soon to say goodbye properly, I promise.

In the meantime you have your bunny, a monkey from Sofie and a picture of us all. You were in that picture Joe, though none of us knew it at the time. At New Year we were in Gran Canaria, where the picture was taken. On January 8, in Valencia Airport, I found out we were expecting you. Sofie looks a bit bemused by the parrots, but we were all very happy there. Wonderful memories I wish we could continue.

Daddy and I have talked a lot about you baby boy. We want to make you proud of us; you’ve had such a profound effect on us already and we have struck a bargain to commemorate you as best we can:

We’ve decided to raise funds and awareness in your name for the Stillbirth and Neonatal Death Charity, SANDS.

We’ve decided to do everything we can to become a better and stronger family to make you proud.

We’ve decided to stretch more in what we do and how we do it and be the best we can be, in memory of you darling boy.

Daddy has put together a fundraising webpage, now all we have to do is think of things to do to achieve these goals.

We’re looking forward darling. Just as we did before you left, just as we would have if you had still been here. God only knows we can’t think of anything else to DO, except miss you, which we do. All the time.

Mummy x